death

All i've been thinking about in the last few hours is death. I don't believe in a higher being or an after life. All though my curiosity strikes me, what does happen to you when you die? I mean, all you are is a brain. Everything you are, is your brain. When you die, your brain dies. You're gone. No more memories, no more anything. I think about death a lot. I want to die, I don't want to die. I want to fight to keep on living and not give up. Death scares me shitless. I don't want to imagine no longer being able to remember anything or exist. I don't want to live forever, I hate this life. But it's not like I can throw it away and be handed a new one. :/ Death scares me.