I need to go grocery shopping. I need things to do besides sitting on this computer.

My days kind of consist of me just sitting on my computer, most likely playing wow or sitting on myspace. Watching Food Network and maybe cooking/baking/eating if I bother with the lack of food we have. And that's pretty much it. Like, there's nothing really around here for me to do. I don't own a car or even drive. We live in such a smallllll town that there's nothing close by or in walking distance and there's no public transportation even.

Kevin keeps telling me I need some source of income, like I don't already know. Like, yeah I get it. I need a job. But really, one. There are no jobs in the US in general because of the shit economy. Two, we live in such a small town that all there is is the Mill (factory) that Kevin works at, an Indian owned gas station and a pizza place. That's it. I can't work at any of those. I don't drive so I can't get anywhere else. Like, ugh.

Not to mention I'm "in school" and can barely even get myself up to doing that. Ugh! Like, I am broke and Kevin was out of work for 2 weeks because he was sick so he's WAY behind on money and like I understand, but I have barely enough money to my name to buy groceries so it's really rough. Like, I don't really know what he expects of me.

Like, jgsfg what am I supposed to do?! I mean if we bought our own groceries, I'd be fine. But either he buys groceries or I buy groceries and we eat each others. And he got pissy with me because I made the statement that he actually has an income where he has like 600+ extra a month after all his bills and that I have no income so him buying groceries in general is more... logical. I guess was how I put it and he got pissy. Like, I know that probably makes me sound horrible.. but like when I first moved in, we NEVER had groceries so I'd have to pull his leg to bring me just to buy food. And I would buy our groceries for awhile and then he started to because I had no money and well hello WE BOTH HAVE TO EAT. And I get that he had no money for 2 weeks and had a ton of bills come in, but one. That's his damn fault because he went out and gambled 300 bucks on Valentine's day. 300 bucks he DIDNT HAVE TO SPEND, and he didn't even spend Valentine's day with me or do anything with me. I spent it with Jessica and he came home and I make him and his friend Buck dinner and that was it. Like, ugh. I don't know. Like I'm being bitchy about it, but like I don't have income and the chances of me getting income is next to none and he doesn't really understand that. He's like my mother. Like really, what the fuck do you expect it's not like it's 100% my fault. I don't bother trying anymore because frankly it's not worth my effort. I don't have time for that bullshit.

UGH rawr. growl.