send me away

so, i guess i've come to realize that people.. will tell you they're your friend and how much they value your friendship. but it's just a show. it's a lie. they never really meant it. you're as good to dead to them and it really doesn't mean anything.

it's so foolish. this state, this city. such a disgrace.

like, i tell myself over and over how i don't care and how i'll move on and how i saw all this coming, but those few people... those few people that i thought were "different", they're not. you're all the god damn same. you're all suffocating.

anyways, i'm horribly sick and on my period so i'm nauseous x545452. i'm without kevin in syracuse, for god knows how much longer and it's killing us both. seriously, it hasn't even been that long and i'm already tearing apart.

i dropped a class in school, because i couldn't handle it. oh well. my mom's pissed over it, but what am i supposed to do. i tried. she'd be even more mad if i officially failed it. oh well.

bgjbffjgd

oh, and my brother got married to some tramp. that we {our family} all fucking HATE. he hasn't even told any of us. utoh. lololololol

/puke