I haven't blogged on this thing in what seems like forever. I just set
up my email blogging so maybe that'll be easier for me to keep it going?

I've been having a rough time. Ups and downs. Ups and downs. That's
all my life is.

I have been off my meds... for a long time. For over a week now I
think. I got super sick whenever I stopped and I haven't bothered to
get back on them. I have an appointment tomorrow and we'll see what
happens.

Kayce and I dated, I broke up with him. I'm still in love with Kevin.
But Kayce and I are talking again and he told me he's in love with me
and how there's no one more perfect but he knows i'm too good for him
and deserve better.

I had this huge thing where I realized Kevin and I should still be
dating, and how we should have never broken up and how things would be
just so much better if we were still together. But he still won't talk
to me.

I went to virginia for 2 weeks. I haven't talked to Angela in forever
it seems and it's really bumming me out that I haven't heard much of
her. Nikki and I had a falling out but as of tonight I think we're
trying to work on it? It's complicated I guess.

I have a road test scheduled for Wednesday, but at this point and time
I have no car to drive so I have no idea what to do. My mom bailed on
me and my sister refuses to answer my calls.

I was looking forward to so much when I came back and like I knew it
would, it's all fallen through. I don't really know what to do with
myself. I kind of hate that it always happens like this. Always.