On a different note.

I can't believe my ex Brian. Has a fucking kid and is engaged.
I can't believe my ex Paul is turning 29 this year and has a 6? 7? year old.
I think Joe actually got married.
I'm sure AJ and Sarah are engaged by now. They've been together for 3 years now.
I still can't believe Ryan's a father and how I kind of stopped him from getting married, oops.

I can't believe so many of my ex's already have families or are starting ones and there are so many more, but frankly I'm not going to bother looking it all up. I just.. want that for me. I want love. I want someone to love me and be willing to take care of me and get married and raise a baby together.